Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Went home straight after work. Saiful went to JB with his other 2 frens. Quite worried for him though. I hope he's fine there. They went there to do raya shopping..*so makcik sey*.. Rushed home as break-fast was near... Even by leaving work at 530pm dont do anything much. I reached home just on time for buke. Cant even rest awhile.
Itz been quite sometime me being at home this early.. At times I enjoyed myself being at home. When there's nothing to worry and when everybody seems pretty calm...
Today I just feel weird. Suddenly I think about my late grandma. This 25th Sept will be exactly 1year she left us. I dunno why but she's always in my thoughts..and lately itz every now and then.. Is it because I miss her? Is it because she around me without me knowing? Yes..I missed her lots. Many things about her made me smile eventhough when she' angry. She pampered me lots. Real lots.. Im just sad that I couldnt get to hear what she wanted to say during her few days before she left. She wasnt that strong to communicate 2months before she left. And within that 2months, she was in and out from the hospital. I knew she was in pain.
Everytime I visited her be it at home or hospital, im glad that she still recognize me. She knew I was there beside her. I missed the moment when she holds my hand thight everytime I visited her. N that kisses that she gave me..really touched me. She made herself strong to even hold my hands thight. 3days before she left, she called for me. She grabs my hands and wanted to say/tell me something.. But she couldnt even say it out.. I wasnt that strong to even recall that moment. I just gave her a kiss and hugged her. That was the last.. But im still wondering what is it that she's trying to tell me.. If I were to know it, I promised that i'll fulfill it.. For my beloved grandma.
My late uncle is also on my mind. He passed away exactly 2weeks after my grandma.. I pray for the best of both souls.. N i hope they rest in peace after all the sufferrings they've went through...
MNGirl Scribbles 11:52 PM
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